it has been 19 days (originally written on 231217) since i last typed anything here, and i wanted to start it of with the discussion of a worldwide-or-recent issue.
i think, what i'd like to discuss is more onto feelings, depression, illness, heroism, sacrifice, love. and things somehow related
recently, i've been reading an abundant of books in relation to depression- and well more specifically-suicide. yes it is a touchy subject but, nevertheless i'd like to understand it. in the more recent days, i have just completed reading In 27 Days by Ally Marie, a paranormal romance which reminds me the change that can be caused by the simplest of actions. Some other readings i have had in relation with so, would be 13 Reasons Why, My Heart and Other Black Holes etc.
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devices may be ruining this generation but with it i have also learnt things i never would have known. watching movies- specifically dramas with my mother, most of which are based-inspired by true stories, allowed me to widen my horizon that some have trouble coping with this life. Hacksaw Ridge, The Shape of Water, Breathe etc. these movies evidently brought tears to be shed and promptly inspired me into believing more, hoping and loving larger. they portray acts of heroism, sacrifice and love for all individuals no matter the looks. and also, struggles and hope. movies like My Sister's Keeper are ones that will never truly leave my mind.
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Well, back to the topic. I'd just like to say that people should always have another person to confide in, to talk about all the lingering thoughts. Because the longer they remain, the more complicated it is to erase. Evidently, it doesn't necessarily mean that it should be known to everybody, even one is enough. With me, that is the case.
Most of my friends
Wednesday, December 27, 2017
Monday, December 4, 2017
An ambition for SMILES :D
Assalammualaikum blog!
I am completely sure that most are really bored by my posts because they are absolute in no way enthusiastic or creative - but then again I am writing in my own will _ so I'll try making them fun but other than eh I just want myself to be happy hee
I actually just wanna talk about many, many things- this blog is like a personnel- my own private place to speak out the mind.
So,
As for so long. My mother has always encouraged me to become a Dentist '' and that was ever since age 6. My mother would always put Fatimah Az-Zahra or, to be exact Ustadha Fatimah Az-Zahra Al-Hafizah-- who my dear, dear readers.. is a dentist and a hafizah. She has indeed become a source of encouragement to me during those days and still now actually but ambitions change by time.
And
As kids are it changes multiply. But, I guess as they say "you can't quite get rid of your first love" for me it also applies as "you can't get rid of your first ambition"
By now though, I have found my true reasoning in the want to apply for dentistry.
When I go to dentist, I come out feeling somehow capable of doing anything I want- it puts me at high hopes because I feel confidence flowing through every cell in my body and I just can't help the urge to smile as brightly as possible.
I think that's really what I want- for people to feel as happy as I felt during and after those visits to the dentist.
I want people to SMILE. 😁
The world lurks with danger at every corner- it causes great fear, depression, anxiety and all the reasons for a person to not smile, and be happy.
I'd love to change that- I'm not sure just how checking teeth is going to change all that, but I'd like to give it a try.
there's this thing I always keep in my mind
"be successful not because we don't want to be the poor, but because we want to HELP the poor"
Life may suck for some- but it is not an excuse to be ungrateful
because indeed there are more things to smile for than there is to frown. It's just the matter of how you look at it and how you live it.
Cheerio 💓
I am completely sure that most are really bored by my posts because they are absolute in no way enthusiastic or creative - but then again I am writing in my own will _ so I'll try making them fun but other than eh I just want myself to be happy hee
I actually just wanna talk about many, many things- this blog is like a personnel- my own private place to speak out the mind.
So,
As for so long. My mother has always encouraged me to become a Dentist '' and that was ever since age 6. My mother would always put Fatimah Az-Zahra or, to be exact Ustadha Fatimah Az-Zahra Al-Hafizah-- who my dear, dear readers.. is a dentist and a hafizah. She has indeed become a source of encouragement to me during those days and still now actually but ambitions change by time.
And
As kids are it changes multiply. But, I guess as they say "you can't quite get rid of your first love" for me it also applies as "you can't get rid of your first ambition"
By now though, I have found my true reasoning in the want to apply for dentistry.
When I go to dentist, I come out feeling somehow capable of doing anything I want- it puts me at high hopes because I feel confidence flowing through every cell in my body and I just can't help the urge to smile as brightly as possible.
I think that's really what I want- for people to feel as happy as I felt during and after those visits to the dentist.
I want people to SMILE. 😁
The world lurks with danger at every corner- it causes great fear, depression, anxiety and all the reasons for a person to not smile, and be happy.
I'd love to change that- I'm not sure just how checking teeth is going to change all that, but I'd like to give it a try.
there's this thing I always keep in my mind
"be successful not because we don't want to be the poor, but because we want to HELP the poor"
Life may suck for some- but it is not an excuse to be ungrateful
because indeed there are more things to smile for than there is to frown. It's just the matter of how you look at it and how you live it.
Cheerio 💓
Friday, December 1, 2017
A wannabe poem (crazy rambling please don't mind me)
, elegance
as the wind falls on feathers
the grass it parts undaunted
the winter then blossoms
;eyes the fall of tears
in what the trees preserved
as the sun kisses earth
when the pages collide with words
;truth meets the wish
until then it is all that matters
,❤
THIS IS JUST SO RANDOM BTW :')
HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY WHATEVER THIS IS
(fully my own words okayyy)
even though this is like so...
Monday, November 27, 2017
Birthday Blues
Heyho Heyho What d'ya wanna know
HELLO BLG, this post was meant to be posted yesterday, BUT! I just didn't felt like doing so.
For the past few days since I last published anything- what events occurred, one of them was my MOTHER'S BIRTHDAYY!!!!! and by chance, it was also the day we were to return from Muar to Kuantan. All and all we celebrated it just as fine in the car- although it was raining heavily throughout the journey. But, that was definitely no excuse- after we reached home (*sighsohhomesweethome), my dad went landing on the bed after a very tiring drive considering how my mum and I basically slept.
My mum and I, well we had some ladies time. After cooling down a bit in our respective rooms, we went for sauna~ for about 30 minutes or so. It was such fun!! Tired or not, we felt that the day was well spent.
AND the next event that occurred? MY BIRTHDAY! (yep, I was born the date after my mum's :P )
So, basically this was yesterday. We exited the house at around noon- going to Domino's and Secret Recipe to buy whatever it is they sell and brought it over to Wan's house for enjoyment of others too :D
Then we went to Berjaya Megamall where there was a POPULAR BOOK SALE-
I bought 2 novels 1. One of us is lying (which was on the top of my wishlist)
and 2. Tell me three things (which was also one of the books on my wishlist)
and I also bought this really pretty classic journal- I am so in love with it!!!1
Bye-------
HELLO BLG, this post was meant to be posted yesterday, BUT! I just didn't felt like doing so.
For the past few days since I last published anything- what events occurred, one of them was my MOTHER'S BIRTHDAYY!!!!! and by chance, it was also the day we were to return from Muar to Kuantan. All and all we celebrated it just as fine in the car- although it was raining heavily throughout the journey. But, that was definitely no excuse- after we reached home (*sighsohhomesweethome), my dad went landing on the bed after a very tiring drive considering how my mum and I basically slept.
My mum and I, well we had some ladies time. After cooling down a bit in our respective rooms, we went for sauna~ for about 30 minutes or so. It was such fun!! Tired or not, we felt that the day was well spent.
AND the next event that occurred? MY BIRTHDAY! (yep, I was born the date after my mum's :P )
So, basically this was yesterday. We exited the house at around noon- going to Domino's and Secret Recipe to buy whatever it is they sell and brought it over to Wan's house for enjoyment of others too :D
Then we went to Berjaya Megamall where there was a POPULAR BOOK SALE-
I bought 2 novels 1. One of us is lying (which was on the top of my wishlist)
and 2. Tell me three things (which was also one of the books on my wishlist)
and I also bought this really pretty classic journal- I am so in love with it!!!1
Bye-------
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
Crochet learning
HALLOOO
Thank you atuk for helping me fill up this holiday with some very useful stuff \(^0^)/
It's been nearly a week since I last posted anything since I hardly had a chance to open up my laptop :SDD So what exactly was going on during that time? I was at KL because my mummy had a conference there so my dad and I had to tag along. We went on the 19th and just yesterday we were on our way to Kampungggg (*sings Balik Kampung :P) After arriving, I basically spent the balance of the day on landing 😴, OHH!! and I can't forget!! I also learnt crochet with my grandma~ I've been learning how to crochet ever since before PT3 with youtube but it seems I don't really build a good relationship with youtube crochet lessons- it was way better learning it with grandma (atuk <3 3="" basic="" crochets="" div="" i="" know="" nbsp="" now="" of="" the="" yeay="">
I am like super enthusiastic about learning more different ways!!
Adieu
(not my photo: creds to owner :D)
Friday, November 17, 2017
Brooding over
Heyya blg, now what am I doing making an entry tonight. Well lets just say, I really needed to speak out-or in this case type up some of todays doing.
I basically spent today cuddled up in bed-arising-landing-arising-landing and so on with my smartphone to entertain me.
But no, not exactly how most people would think about the social thingies on those smartphones- I for one, was wandering my eyes over the words, sentences and paragraphs that popped out on the phone screen (theoretically though). I was definitely enticed in the novel I read- absolutely in my own world as I finished up Storm and Silence by Robert Thier in the morning.
Unfortunately, I hadn't realised that that was just the beginning- I had chosen a start to a series of 4.
But then again, who was I to blame? The mattress for being such a comfort to my back? The blanket for allowing my blood to flow? The so calming environment of my room? Indeed, I can only blame myself- So I ended up continuing the second book- and now, tonight I have locked myself up into the third and who knows how long I am able to remain awake when I know so well that I yearn so much to finish the whole series today!
When one is indefinitely engrossed into a book- it is with such a minute chance that one is able to awake from it.
Tonight, I have chosen hopefully to read as little as possible which is why I have ended up here. Just before, I was brooding of what to do. Indeed, it has helped in some way-or another. I spent a few minutes going through Goodreads while listening to some calming piano (on youtube) in the background- well I still am now. Such music, have brought me to think much clearly.
I think that is about all for today- cheerio :O
I basically spent today cuddled up in bed-arising-landing-arising-landing and so on with my smartphone to entertain me.
But no, not exactly how most people would think about the social thingies on those smartphones- I for one, was wandering my eyes over the words, sentences and paragraphs that popped out on the phone screen (theoretically though). I was definitely enticed in the novel I read- absolutely in my own world as I finished up Storm and Silence by Robert Thier in the morning.
Unfortunately, I hadn't realised that that was just the beginning- I had chosen a start to a series of 4.
But then again, who was I to blame? The mattress for being such a comfort to my back? The blanket for allowing my blood to flow? The so calming environment of my room? Indeed, I can only blame myself- So I ended up continuing the second book- and now, tonight I have locked myself up into the third and who knows how long I am able to remain awake when I know so well that I yearn so much to finish the whole series today!
When one is indefinitely engrossed into a book- it is with such a minute chance that one is able to awake from it.
Tonight, I have chosen hopefully to read as little as possible which is why I have ended up here. Just before, I was brooding of what to do. Indeed, it has helped in some way-or another. I spent a few minutes going through Goodreads while listening to some calming piano (on youtube) in the background- well I still am now. Such music, have brought me to think much clearly.
I think that is about all for today- cheerio :O
Wednesday, November 15, 2017
Introduction like all introductions
Yep, a few more minutes later- and I AM BACK
The LADY IS BACK IN THE HOUSE!!
Heyya blg <3 p="">This entry is going to be that of- INTRODUCTIONS!
:)
So, who am I? I'm pretty sure there's some info on me to the left of these entries but let us just put some of those clearly as ever before.
The name is Khadijah Tahirah and I sure do have many nicknames- pick one, I'll probably go with it as long as it is sensible enough. I do love and enjoy an abundant of things- but what truly puts me at ease are swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!! and reading!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! those just put me at joy and make me feel on CLOUD NINE! (oh, and I'm utterly in love with the cloud9 chocolates by the way)
One thing that everyone should now, unfortunately is that I have a humongous admiration for PURPLE- it really soothes me you know
Oh, and I dutifully love lavenders, I mean who wouldn't?
The colour so heart-warming
The scent so mind-soothing
The word so perplexing
💞
Lets get back to topic- I'm an only chid
People constantly ask me-
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKEEE???!
IS IT FUNNNNN??!!
AREN'T YOU LONELYYYY???!!!
DON'T YOU WANT SIBLINGSSS??!!
ARE YOU SPOILTTTTTT???! (actually nobody really asks this one)
and due time after answering-and answering-and answering,
I really got myself tired.
I think this is enough? You'll know the real me through these posts- I've entirely gotten myself hyperactive passing these few years in high school.
And who knows if that's a bad or good thing- but I'm not sure I really wanna know
Adieu blg- lots of love <3 p="">
The LADY IS BACK IN THE HOUSE!!
Heyya blg <3 p="">This entry is going to be that of- INTRODUCTIONS!
:)
So, who am I? I'm pretty sure there's some info on me to the left of these entries but let us just put some of those clearly as ever before.
The name is Khadijah Tahirah and I sure do have many nicknames- pick one, I'll probably go with it as long as it is sensible enough. I do love and enjoy an abundant of things- but what truly puts me at ease are swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!! and reading!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! those just put me at joy and make me feel on CLOUD NINE! (oh, and I'm utterly in love with the cloud9 chocolates by the way)
One thing that everyone should now, unfortunately is that I have a humongous admiration for PURPLE- it really soothes me you know
Oh, and I dutifully love lavenders, I mean who wouldn't?
The colour so heart-warming
The scent so mind-soothing
The word so perplexing
💞
Lets get back to topic- I'm an only chid
People constantly ask me-
HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKEEE???!
IS IT FUNNNNN??!!
AREN'T YOU LONELYYYY???!!!
DON'T YOU WANT SIBLINGSSS??!!
ARE YOU SPOILTTTTTT???! (actually nobody really asks this one)
and due time after answering-and answering-and answering,
I really got myself tired.
I think this is enough? You'll know the real me through these posts- I've entirely gotten myself hyperactive passing these few years in high school.
And who knows if that's a bad or good thing- but I'm not sure I really wanna know
Adieu blg- lots of love <3 p="">
Random thoughts and the start of homework
Hey blg (yeah I've decided I'll just call you that blog without the "o"). Well whatever, lets get this started!
It's 2.50 on a Thursday evening and I'm jamming to some of my favourite songs (which by the way are all emotional stuff). While looking around at my newly arranged room, in which I rearrange absolutely EVERY holiday I decided that I should actually REALLY begin my task for the holiday. Honestly, it wasn't actually triggered by wandering my eyes around the room. I was just at my Wan's house this morning as I met some of my cousins who were indeed not at school today due to the ongoing SPM examination. After interviewing them some time about school this year and stuff, my heart kind of went out for them since they have school tomorrow- yeah I know I'm exaggerating when they don't even know what they do at school but I just couldn't help it haha
So, now here I am. Gonna make my hand start typing up homework.
Honestly, I like the english homework this end of the year- but look at that I've gone berserk AND out of topic. I truly meant this entry to be an introduction (for the task) but hey it seems that I just can't.
Farewell blg- I'm gonna start with the task! I hope
It's 2.50 on a Thursday evening and I'm jamming to some of my favourite songs (which by the way are all emotional stuff). While looking around at my newly arranged room, in which I rearrange absolutely EVERY holiday I decided that I should actually REALLY begin my task for the holiday. Honestly, it wasn't actually triggered by wandering my eyes around the room. I was just at my Wan's house this morning as I met some of my cousins who were indeed not at school today due to the ongoing SPM examination. After interviewing them some time about school this year and stuff, my heart kind of went out for them since they have school tomorrow- yeah I know I'm exaggerating when they don't even know what they do at school but I just couldn't help it haha
So, now here I am. Gonna make my hand start typing up homework.
Honestly, I like the english homework this end of the year- but look at that I've gone berserk AND out of topic. I truly meant this entry to be an introduction (for the task) but hey it seems that I just can't.
Farewell blg- I'm gonna start with the task! I hope
Monday, November 13, 2017
First in long
Heyya blg, been 3 years hasn't it and I'm here out of the blue, well as we all know (more like as I know) I've been a tad busy at my boarding school and really didn't have a reason to update this blg. Reading my older posts really got me bursting my stomach, can you imagine I used to spell "favourite" as faubrat 😂 I do wonder what I was thinking back then.
So my post today, I say is actually compulsory and not truly in my own will- that's bad. But, just to assure blg, I have had some passing thoughts about updating this blog. just look at it- I feel so childish.
Well, I'm definitely not gonna let this blog die. I mean, there are tons of childish memories here-really brings you to tears you know haha.
Just think of this post as the firstttt of high school. Thinking bout it though, I can't believe I didn't post anything during 2015&16. I was pretty sure I did, but I guess those were just realistic dreams.
So, why exactly I'm I choosing to type in my life's adventure now? Yeah, you'll know later on- probaly tonight, or tomorrow, or a few years later on haha just kidding.
Andd, I'm OUT blg- Sayonara :P
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